allopenstar | Writing a diary

I have alot of thoughts that I always want to write down, like in my darkest moments, when I am thinking about leaving God, only one thought kept me going: if my life is screwed up and out of control now, imagine how out of control it is gonna be when God is out of the picture. Selfish yes, but I never claimed to have a purely altruistic motive when I place my faith in God.

I watch alot of shows now, because my life is very empty now. Pretty pathetic in a way. I am happy watching shows, cos I learn alot of stuff, form a few opinions on various issues and broaden my view of the world. Sometimes, I wish I was DOING something instead of watching it all pass by me, but generally, I am happy where I am.

I love reading my friends page, because it keeps me aware of ongoings like Polanski's arrest.

I am thinking of participating in Day of Silence 2010.

I NEED TO STUDY.

If you read this journal often, do leave a comment. I dunno, friend me or smth. Lemme know. I am gonna screen comments...