Silenced

Dec. 4th, 2011 02:33 am
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Why is it that, some days I feel so silenced? Some days I feel like I am so uncomfortable with myself, and I ask myself, what are you doing? Why are you here?

You know, I don't have many close friends. The few that I have, I chose. It is because I feel safe with them. How can you make me feel so unsafe, make me feel like my opinion is not worth hearing? Make me feel that my laughter is hollow?

I think it is now on me to set the boundaries of friendship. Our friendship cannot be based on the good old times. Sometimes, I wonder why I want to leave this place, and I know it is because I feel so unsafe here.

They are people. WE are people. Why do I have to be the one to educate you? All your privilege, all your privilege and you can't even see it.

I wish I could say forget it, but I can't, because I still care. About you. All of you.

I'll just find something that gives me a voice, inspires me, and go out to fight another day.