Ezekiel or Israel
May. 6th, 2010 12:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
allopenstarSo my dad took back the car. Logistics aside, I am afraid that the people whom I have been sending around lately will have to take public transport for a while.
I feel like I have been in water for quite a while, going against the current, but nevertheless still making progress. But now I feel like I have hit a wall. And I hate hitting walls. I feel like I am hitting walls on all sides, and there is nowhere to look but up.
Ezekiel 2 speaks of a obstinate and stubborn nation, one who does not listen to God, that is Israel, and how God will make Ezekiel as tough as them, so that he will not waver in their presence. Yes, maybe I want to take Ezekiel's point of view, and to let myself be strengthen by God, because, to be quite honest, I am very tempted to simply follow the rules laid down by my father in order to gain his favour.
But there is also a part of me who is obstinate and stubborn, a part that does not listen to God.
These days I feel so blind. I feel like all I can do is to pray until there is a breakthrough. In what, and how, I do not know, but I trust in God and His ways.
I believe that this is the process, that I am in the 40 years journey with God.
I feel like I have been in water for quite a while, going against the current, but nevertheless still making progress. But now I feel like I have hit a wall. And I hate hitting walls. I feel like I am hitting walls on all sides, and there is nowhere to look but up.
Ezekiel 2 speaks of a obstinate and stubborn nation, one who does not listen to God, that is Israel, and how God will make Ezekiel as tough as them, so that he will not waver in their presence. Yes, maybe I want to take Ezekiel's point of view, and to let myself be strengthen by God, because, to be quite honest, I am very tempted to simply follow the rules laid down by my father in order to gain his favour.
But there is also a part of me who is obstinate and stubborn, a part that does not listen to God.
These days I feel so blind. I feel like all I can do is to pray until there is a breakthrough. In what, and how, I do not know, but I trust in God and His ways.
I believe that this is the process, that I am in the 40 years journey with God.
