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allopenstarI guess now is the period of time where I start to plan and juggle many things. The sem is almost over, and I need to start planning for the future. And once again, I realise that I have completely no idea what I want to do in the future, or even how my future is going to look like. And I am scrambling all over the place, trying to make the pieces make sense. Germany, research, LNAT, UK. So much craziness on top of my finals. The path I want to take is complicated, and winding, has many intricate steps that needs to fall in place. I'm going to have to make sacrifices along the way - ones that I am ready to make, and ones that I am not ready to make.
And the thing is, every time I see NYC virtually, I just want to scrape all my plans and take the quickest way there. There is a longing and a desire, and I am going to have to play the waiting game if NYC remains my goal.
I'm so goalless that it scares me sometimes, because what I want to do, it is still so far away.
My only security is that my future is in God's hands.
And the thing is, every time I see NYC virtually, I just want to scrape all my plans and take the quickest way there. There is a longing and a desire, and I am going to have to play the waiting game if NYC remains my goal.
I'm so goalless that it scares me sometimes, because what I want to do, it is still so far away.
My only security is that my future is in God's hands.
